ThePianoWings

My name is Lilith and snakes circle my throat Look in my eyes as they squeeze tighter I've watched you fall apart I'll make you fall in love with me because I wasn't made for you but you were made for me If you try to find another I'll suck out the venom from my wounds and spit it into you. I am the snake I am the apple I am everything after My name is Lilith and You were an afterthought so why do I find myself up at night wondering what might have been If you had bent to my will I will not be killed You're not even whole you need eve to be a complete soul So why am I the one who feels alone I am the mother of evil and I'll show

Here are some things I've been thinking about, keeping some of your stuff to make a shrine, killing all of your future girlfriends so you have to come back to me, not killing myself because you'd hate me, never talking to you again, almost sending you a text every 5 minutes, breaking down every time I look absolutely anywhere because you are my everything and the walls breathe your name and our furniture sounds like you laughing it all belongs to you or is because of you, I've been thing about never taking a bath again, or going in our room, or talk to anyone because they're not you, I've been praying to skip this part and go straight to bein

I'm so scared it's sickening. Why can't the past just stay in the past? Once it comes to thoughts it usually becomes a reality, again... I hate this feeling. I HATE THIS! But I will deal with it because I love you Tyler and I need to get over my pety fears. Please don't hurt me again. I won't be able to handle it as well this time, and considering what I did last time you know what I'm saying. I just wish I could be enough, I wish I knew who you really loved, I wish  she was dead, I wish she would treat you right so we could both be happy, I wish you trusted me, I wish I wasn't such a dumb fucking teenager!... I just wish so much...